June 15, 2018
"Can you not have sex with guys?"
"I wasn't trying to rape you"
"I'm use to girls that do consensual non consensual"
That is what I heard after I was raped.
I went to a friends house who just happened to be a Dom. I met them at a local munch. I started to talk to them on FB before I went to their house. I got no feelings of not feeling safe. I told him up front I was not there to have sex. I wanted to get to know him as a person. Not on a D/s level. I have a screenshot of me saying no sex
I sent a friend of mine a safe word for calls and texts, their FL name, their FB name, their picture, and their address. I sent them everything. If the person wasn't sitting outside I would have taken a picture of their car too. I felt a little weird doing that. I took everything I learned from just a few years before into place. I checked in with my friend and my mom.
We made dogs on the grill and went up to his room. Where the AC was on and cooler. There wasn't AC in the rest of the house. I sat on his bed with my back against the wall. He put his feet on my legs as we sat there to watch a movie. He unbuckled his pants and just laid there. I have seen guys do that before. I didn't think nothing of it. He asked me to lay down next to him. I said "no, I will fall asleep. I want to watch the movie." The next thing I know he pulls me down next to him. Blocks me from moving off the bed. He started to kiss me. I tried to dodge his kisses. He was touching my breasts and I kept moving his hand. He asked me if he could kiss them. I said "no"
I continued to push his hands away as he now laid on top of me. He tried to finger me. I pushed his hands away. He just kept doing what he wanted to do. I ended up freezing. As the memories of my marriage came flooding back to me. No matter what I did he didn't listen. He ended up pulling down my pants and fingering me. He then said he would be right back and grabbed a toy just feet away from us. I laid there frozen. Not even sure what was going to happen. He then put the toy in me as he was sitting in front of me naked. I don't even know when he got naked. I don't remember him ever getting naked.. He made me cum, and NO I didn't enjoy it. He asked me "Do you want my cock?" I said NO. He put his dick on my clit as he used the toy on me more... He dropped the toy and inserted his dick. His hands were on each side of me as he raped me hard. I freaked out on him. He got off quickly. As I laid there he got back down and said "can you not have sex with guys?" OMFG really...
I got up and got dressed as best as I could. He helped me close my bra because I just couldn't do it. I sat there frozen in time as the movie played. I needed to gather my thoughts before I got behind the wheel and drove an hour home. He sat next to me naked and said "I wasn't trying to rape you." Then he said "I'm use to girls doing consensual non consensual. " At some point I told him I said "I said no when you asked me if I wanted your cock" I guess he thought I was joking or I really wanted it. He even said I acted like I wanted it.. What part of NO didn't he understand?
I finally got in my car and I left. I called RACES and told them I think I was just raped. I told him what happened in grave detail. Just about what I just posted here. I called a friend and said I need to come over. I went over to her house. She came outside. I looked at her and hugged her so tight. She knew instantly what happened without me saying. I finally collapsed to the ground on sharp gravel. I sat there spacing out. I finally uttered the words "I think i was raped" I don't remember anything after that. I got home around 2am and went to bed. I ended up taking a shower the next day because we have one working shower. That is in my moms room. I couldn't take a shower at 3am.
The next day I told the local munch leaders I was no loner going to attend the munches. When one of them saw me and tried to hug me I flinched. I didn't mean too. They asked me what happened. I told him. I never gave a name. It was a friend of mine who ended up sharing the name. Well, now the rest is history...
EDIT*
Not afraid anymore to say who it is. His FL name as of now is: DaddyBear0411. He keeps trying to find new places to attend munches in the area and is now trying to go to Indiana. Please do not friend him and be aware of him. He has been banned from many local munches for stalk-ish behaviors and due to what was written above.
On 9/6/18 he messaged me stated if I didn’t take this down he would cause violence. He isn’t a safe person. A week later he went around the community stating we were talking and friends again. Which wasn’t true and he knew it. All my accounts I have proof I never unblocked him since June of 2018. I am talking from personal accounts. Other group leaders have had their own experiences with him. ( I have screenshots of him saying he wanted to create violence)
*update December 5, 2018
Got awarded what I wanted to from the courts. He couldn’t bother to show up. From September 2018 to now I was in courts fighting to get a no contact order. They heard my testimony about what he did.
*update 9/30/2019
He has changed his name yet again to psychosexyfreak. Changed his status from Daddy to Primal Predator. He is always changing his name and location of where he lives. Today he tried to join a group I am a leader of. Seems to think there is no paperwork on him from the courts. Just because he doesn’t have them doesn’t mean the police and the courts don’t have them. I have shown proof to some of the local leaders my court papers. He is at it again a year later.
*update October 2019
Changing his roles back to Daddy. Who knows why Primal Predator didn’t work out. Even though he is blocked I can see his changes to his name and title. My guess his fetishes have changed back to Daddy as well.
*update November 2019
He is contacting people and it gets back to me. He has now changed his role to switch then to daddy then to whatever. It seems like every 20 days it changes. Is trying to get in a poly group. None says he can’t join. I have never pegged him as poly. Let alone a switch.
*update December 2019 physcosexyfreak is no longer on FL. They never stay hidden for long.
update August 2022 I got word he is tying to move back into CU groups and attend again. He is using a new name
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